Sensitivities

When a person feels as if they have an exclusive connection with another a lot of emotions are simply expected and accepted as understood and mutually held. When things get scrutinized all the variances are then laid bare and can be explained if patience is held with a desire to know. At times it was easy and simply an obvious extraction, all that was good was true.

Time and separation dull all sharp definitions. Clear paths get overgrown, set goals change, new challenges replace old difficulties and time marches onward. Reconnection becomes relearning, both identities must know and care enough to demonstrate what was done and what is still held as truth are in line with what was the original commitment in spirit, in the heart, in friendship.

Sometimes waiting is imposed from without, circumstances eliminate the choices. Sometimes waiting is within, the heart cant get out of its own way.

A true heart will remain in that state indefinitely.

Have it Your Way

I think of my to do list and it keeps getting longer, while the contingencies to embark keep me tied in knots. Life can sometimes seem an endless series of waiting. I am so lucky I have patience, sometimes I wonder where my procrastination ends and my patience begins. I believe in a limitless horizon, I believe what I have been shown is just the outer surface of what could be in store. My faith gets tested and is found to be lacking, yet I will always cling to the positive. What is good gets better and static will fade. What is bad I hope to leave far behind. The human mind is amazing how it can heal itself, strengthen itself, and learn from itself.

I only need to lay the blame on why these are the lessons I have chosen to learn?

There's Light in the Darkness

Theres a beacon that shines amid the darkest of days and promises to guide the paths of those who search for direction, day or night.

Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.

Colossians 3:2

Behold, I will send my messenger, and he shall prepare the way before me: and the Lord, whom ye seek, shall suddenly come to his temple, even the messenger of the covenant, whom ye delight in: behold, he shall come, saith the LORD of hosts.

Malachi 3:1

I Wonder

The Lord always provides a way out, always puts people in our path that can help. I never want to use anybody, however, I know destinies collide and if I can help I am happy to do so, too.

Sometimes it may seem like a friend is there and then they are not, but they are. Sometimes the growth exceeds the available space and can no longer be contained. Sometimes the directions change the course and since we always grow toward the light...

Realizations

We come into this world with nothing and with nothing we depart. Along the way we gather the things that make us who we are. We live, we love, we win and we lose. We gain and we give back, we remember and lest we forget, we hold on. We meet and we bond, we adjust and we care. We fight to preserve ourselves and our dignity, and we try to stay true.

We go on as far as we can and if we never give up the blessing is ours.

On Longing, Jealousy, Loneliness and Love

What ever happened to my spirit?

Hopes rise and fall, If I lose control I wonder...

I'm so full of hope and still find despair?

I ask, and I receive,

Life is the Blessing we make it, all ways. : )

我可以認識您

I can know you

Our lives encompass one another seeking friendship that can stand the test of time

Memories and dreams entwined to form bonds

where only open space existed before

I hoped to build bridges to that future as life begins anew

Nothing breaks down those barriers completely,

I see now

Nothing can express love quite that sweetly,

but you showed me how

What was shared is all the evidence I need,

what I felt was my soul freed

I see heaven is closer than not, in good time we will share

I will meet you there, I will meet you there

In God speed I meet you there

Where the Heart Is

I have learned so much from my friends, some newer and some people I have known for years and years. I am so thankful to have someone to talk to when I am at my wit's end. I believe the Lord sends us people who can help and when we listen the wisdom and the blessing become crystal clear. The hope I cling to is that what is right and true in the end is what wins hearts and minds.

The Meaning of Christmas

Let the trumpets sound! Unto us this day our Saviour is born.

Hark, the Herald Angels Sing.


Thinking of all who are dear and remaining in contact. I will be praying for the gift of Love, for the whole world.

All the modern mechanisms can bring us closer...

Christmas wishes for me are mainly to keep in touch with dear friends and Family.

Send a letter and hope to hear back soon : )

Every day could be like Christmas if we never forget the reason for the Season. The birth of our Saviour.

Santa represents giving from the heart, our Love and ourselves.

Winter Wonderland

Love to Go Around

The dividing of attention and the size of my heart are not directly linked. Sometimes I get the feeling that some people feel there is only enough love to fill the heart full and then it remains static. I like to think of my heart as being able to grow with every new friend and to welcome in and keep all who are dear.

My children have the top spot and they know it, but they want to be assured, and sometimes they feel threatened when they realize I turn my attention elsewhere. It's not that they don't want me happy, it's that they feel left out, and realize they are not completely controlling the environment.

I have always tried to be honest and forgiving and above all, understanding in all relationships. In my walk I have tried to find the balance between responsibility and necessity and personal desire. I would never do anything to damage anybody else in any way, no matter what happened in the past. I would feel awful if I ever caused another parental relationship with their children any hardship or difficulties. I know well from my own situation and I believe the Golden Rule.

As important as a parent child relationship is for the growth of the child it is also important for the children to have happy parents and to understand that their parents have a life that is independent from the kids, also. Our children will eventually grow up and have a life of their own, and then they will hope we have one too.

Christmas Past

Christmas Past and Christmas Future will never compare to Christmas Present.

I remember dreaming during the countdown to Christmas Day as a kid and how it seemed it would never come.

It's funny how, even as an adult I continued to put much anticipation into hopes and promises out in the future. Because, if my happiness depends on another person or another situation, disappointment is inevitable. To live for the day is the dream,

and the reality.

When One Door Closes Two more Open?

I thank God every day for everything, and today he may have set me free.

: )

If It Snowed Today?

If it snows in the Sacramento Valley today, is that Global Warming, or just climate change?

Isn't it ironic how sometimes things happen in the world at large and get illustrated on the local level, too?

I would love to see a little snowfall today, here. With so many liberals in the State wouldn't that be great if on the day of their big event in Copenhagen they got to have snow for the first time in their big cities here? It's such a fitting kick off to the big "Climate" event.

To Be Thankful

I am always thankful for life and the chance to improve upon my circumstances with every new day. I can count the ways I am Thankful:

Health

Children

Ability to Work

Knowledge of the Lord

Friends

The Beauty of our Natural World

The Gift of Life

The pursuit of Happiness

Our Freedom

A whole Universe of possibilities

Laughter

Smiles

Hugs

I am Thankful our Country has always overcome adversity. And I am certain when we are done dabbling in the present reconstitution of Socialism we will emerge stronger and freer than if we never decided to see what was in the shadows and just around the corner.

The new world order needs to be Freedom for all. Not just North America.

Not just Europe (ha!)

Not just an Island...

Is it Faithless?

I wonder if, when I make a move that could be seen as hedging, in regards to my deepest hopes and desires, am I proving faithless or just being pragmatic?

When faith is shaken, what is the realistic human response to the fear of being disappointed? Having lived through my own personal letdowns, the last thing I want is to contribute to similar despondency in anyone else's life.

The cause and effect of human emotions and where and when feelings begin and end is a mystery for all the ages. It can even be illustrated as a mathematical equation, just with constantly fluctuating variables.

All human relations have a divine example in the way that God loves us, forever. If we follow that example we cannot go wrong.

Bark at the Moon

It is so difficult to get a good picture of the moon, but I am inspired to try every time I see it.

Joey is such a good boy!

kisses? : )

Happy Haunting

Learning Spanish is easy

You just need motivation <3

Dream a Little Dream

Sweet memories...

...If a memory can be made from a future event.