Being Driven Away

That's the way I feel. Driven. Driven away from myself, away from My Loves, Away from God, do I even have a chance to get myself back?

Attacks are all around me. Darts hurled by an enemy I cannot understand. My enemies' goal is to seperate me from my God, and what I love. And how I live out my days will be determined by how I face down these Demons.

Right now I am failing, I was to win over an unbeliever, and I have failed. I tried too hard at all the wrong times. And not hard enough the rest of the time. May God have mercy on me, the lowliest of His servants. Barely able to secure my own salvation, through faith, in this most awesome God, somehow I have. My creator, my Light, my only hope, thank you for the gift you gave me, once-for all time.

The raging torrent of emotion has faded once again and left me so cold I am shaking. As if I walked across the thin cracked ice over the frozen pond. I had better not go out there, but I must get to the other side. The mist that wreaths the moon in shrouded, diaphanous mysteries, sets the mood as nothing else could. Each step takes me closer to either my dream or my doom. The cracking sounds snap my attention downward but the echoing makes hope seem so very far away. Alone in this tempest of raw emotion and fear, I feel more numb. Apart from the naivette of youthful ignorance and a bliss that was as false as that reality that had never been reckoned for, how can I pretend I am not afraid?

He Has Risen

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning.
Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it. John 1:1-5

32"Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me". 33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." 17 After Jesus said this he looked toward heaven and prayed. "Father, the time has come. Glorify your Son, that your Son may glorify you. For you granted him authority over all people that he might give eternal life to all those you have given him. Now this is eternal life:that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent. I have brought you glory on earth by completing the work you gave me to do. And now , Father, glorify me in your presence with the glory I had with you before the world began." John 16:32 -John 17:5

Now Thomas (called Didymus) one of the Twelve, was not with the Disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord!"
But he said to them, "Unless I see the nail marks in his hands, and put my fingers where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe it."
A week later his disciples were in the house again and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with You!" Then he said to Thomas, "Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe."
Thomas said to him"My Lord and my God!"
Then Jesus said to him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." John 20: 24-29

Happy Easter!

Jesus was Black?

I never knew that. Not that it would really matter, but I thought He was Jewish. Possibly Ethiopian? Perhaps. Divisions abound when we are talking about events 2,000 years ago. I love the way Obama has chosen to transcend race in our country. I wonder if He chose to be the One before He chose His Church and Pastor? Or maybe it all just fell into place, under the guidance and Tuteledge of one Jeremiah Wright. We will have to Read Barack's next book to figure that one out I guess. The connections to Black Liberation Communist Theology should scare the Hell out of the lefties, but Maybe Barack will let them sit on his Board of Race Relations. If Obama can pull off this Hoax of a Candidacy I will be very afraid for our Nation as a Whole. The divisions will be so many. The ability to correct will be minimized. Beware of wolves in Sheep's clothing.

Out of the Abundance of the Heart

Barack's Pastor has been disavowed by Mr. Obama


I believe Barack is being disingenuous when he says that he didn't know this guy was capable of this kind of diatribe. It is starting to seem as if Barack is a Political opportunist calculating and saying whatever is expedient, moment by moment. I know that these incendiary remarks will get less play than if a white guy had said such things. And as for Barack being somehow a uniter across party lines, I noticed that when He had the opportunity to vote with Republicans(When the Democrats did agree) Barack chose those times not to vote. I wonder if that was seen as agreeing with "whitey" by His Pastor, therefore, somehow unacceptable?
Watch how this politician gets raked through the coals for these remarks. Even a white woman can't express truthful views of their own? Although I guess the Homosexual lobby could be more powerful than the Black Racist thought police. We shall see!
Liberals fighting for the low road, HA! Freedom of Speech? Yes, but take responsibility for the words you choose, and associations that you use for the 'street' credibility you need. And be prepared to own it all the way to Valhalla.
Wright or Wrong

We Have Lost a Standard Bearer

R.I.P. William F. Buckley Jr. The conservative movement has been diminished by the call home to a patron sage. May the inspiration and thinking power live on in all true conservatives. I pray to the Lord to look after one of His own.

Obama Can Win

Isn't it ironic, this whole Obama mania has sucked me in as well. Only my obsession is limited to this cult of personality, the sheer irony of the Leftists going religious, and how a man (as far as we know, he is just a man) can get so close to an all-powerful position with no realistic credentials.

I have a faith that our system will bring to light the relevant data about who Barack Hussein Obama really is. I don't care about the B.S. If he smoked pot or did coke. I gave Bill Clinton that same pass, as sooner or later all our elected officials will most likely have experimented. Bill Clinton lost me when he lied about it. I respect Barack's candor. As long as he isn't doing drugs now it does not matter to me. If he had an affair, well as long as he doesn't defile the oval office or subject himself to blackmail, I could not care less. But Michelle Obama interjecting herself into this thing is alarming. I don't want to start doing all the similarities to the Clinton's, but some are eerie. Co-Presidents, Lawyers, Harvard instead of Yale, Black instead of White, Populists, more Liberal than they would ever dare admit to, etc. etc.

The Identity Politics that the Democrat party plays is thin and flimsy at best. They claim to be trying to Unite our country but all I see are lines of division. What conservative principles has Barack espoused? He's acting like Santa Clause. Something for every little group and only raising taxes to pay for it. He probly wouldn't even raise my taxes, but if I was ever fortunate to make more money, there would be the Obama Plan. Talk about a disincentive to put in the grueling work it takes to build wealth in my business. But I am sure Barack has a plan for that too, right? Open Borders and more of that cheap labor?

I cannot help but be drawn to this phenomenon like a moth to a flame. I know there will come a day when a world leader will become like the Messiah. I know what happens next. I really don't believe it will be an American, but the globalization taking place is also scary and ominous. Just the idolatry of these followers is mystifying to me. And the irony of his name has not gone unnoticed by me. We are fighting radical Islamascists and a candidate with Hussein in His name is peculiar. Can anybody say Manchurian?

I know the Leftists will be the ultimate reason our country falls but if it comes about through a religous like movement, then that would be the most ironic paradox of them all.

The Message From God For the Church Through the Ages

I found this and have to re-emphasize and re-print it. This is where we are now at the last stage of the Church age and awaiting our Lord at any moment.


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John Walvoord,President of Dallas Theological; Seminary- The Revelation of Jesus Christ, Moody Press, 1966
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Taken as a whole, the messages to the seven churches of Asia constitute a tremendous warning from Christ Himself, expressed in the exhortations to each of these churches. He warns the churches today to"hear what the spirit says to the churches."
The Church at Ephesus represents the danger of losing our first love, that fresh ardor and devotion to Christ which characterized the early church.
The church at Smyrna represents the danger of fear of suffering. They were exhorted by Christ to "fear none of the things that they would suffer." In this day when the persecution of the saints has been revived in many places, the church may well need this admonition.
The church at Pergamos illustrates the constant danger of doctrinal compromise, which is often the first step toward complete defection from the faith. Would that the Modern Church, which has forsaken so many fundamentals of Biblical faith, would heed that warning!
The church at Thyatira is a monument to the danger of moral compromise. The church today has not only tolerated but in many cases encouraged compromise of Biblical moral standards.
The church at Sardis is a warning against the danger of spiritual deadness, of orthodoxy without life, of mere outward appearance but no inward reality.
The church of Philadelphia is exhorted to keep enduring with patience and maintain the "little strength" that they had while they wait patiently for the Lords return.
The final message to the church at Laodicea is the crowning indictment, a warning against the danger of lukewarmedness, or self-sufficiency, of being unconscious of desperate spiritual need.
The invitation given long ago to the seven churches of Asia to hear what the Spirit says is extended to all men and churches today. A loving God would have men hear and believe, turn from their idols of sin and self, and look in faith to the Son of God, who loved them and gave Himself for them.
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I too believe the Revelation in terms both for the individual and for the church and for the whole world. We need to know what is there and seek to be prepared as each signpost is passed and we draw ever nearer to 'The Day of the Lord"

A Plea to the Suicidal Nutcases

These Ramapages that end with the shooter killing a bunch of people and then turning the gun upon themself flabberghast and bewilder me. What kind of legacy is that to leave in this world? I wonder if the tortured soul of someone so callous and depraved can even comprehend what a horrific memory they are leaving behind. Do they even care? And if they don't care, then how did that vaccuum get instigated. If their pitiful existence needs to be put out of it's misery then why don't they just kill themselves and keep the bad karma to a minimum?
I am not sure if in this instant news 24/7 cycle it just seems like more of this heinous atrocity is occuring. Or if, indeed, more people are falling off the cliff of despair and dashing their lives on the sharp rocks of reality's fate. I beg of anyone who would do such a thing to talk to someone who can help, anyone who is so depressed they could actually take their own life needs compassionate counseling. And most importantly, to be guided toward our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. For only Satan would counsel a human being to kill other people and then kill themselves. Only Satan would guide a person toward self destruction.
Please, any and all, Lets all pray that this evil is removed as we pray for all evil to be removed. I cannot begin to register the sadness the victims families are feeling and the senselessness of these deaths.

The Bubbling Cauldron

The Good ; Just a few more of these guys to go!
The Bad : Destabilization could bring calamity to us all.
The Ugly: Talk about ugly Americans, this guy hates himself so much he hates all of US.
The world today is such a wicked place. The pressure mounts on all to do the right thing. On this day we should go back to the beginning thank our mother's and try to recapture their hopes and dreams of who they wanted us to become. If they are no longer here then say a prayer for their soul.

Great Quote of the Week

"The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill her own child, what is left for me to kill you and you to kill me? There is nothing between."
Mother Theresa

Great Quote of the Week

"In this world, full often, our joys are only the tender shadows which our sorrows cast."
Henry Ward Beecher

Great Quote of the Week

He shall be afflicted with evil, that is surety for a stranger: But He that is aware of the snares shall be secure.
Proverbs 11:15

Great Quote of the Week

Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy Law
Psalm 119:18

what I can do today?

What does it mean, to live?
Ill pile all my laundry where you should be sleeping. That way something is there.
To Live, thats what we hope happens.
Lies are wise to despise. Like the clutter with which I barricade away my dreams.
It's all there for our enjoyment. But I cant take it I don't deserve it.
We must fear success because then we are subject to daeth.

Great Quote of the Week

"What they desire is a method of forgetting God that will pass as a method of remembering Him." E.G. White

Pardon Me, Excuse Me, I'm Sorry

It seems like the Media Intelligentsia overseeing our National Conscience want America to apologize for every perceived slight from the early days of this country right up to now and our battles for National Survival. Everything that a Liberal looks at must be seen through a prism of the perfect world being the unanimous incontrovertible consensus, therefore should be embraced by all. Tearing down whatever it takes to create a perceived "equality". The Liberal optimist never sees the holes in our defenses this mentality promulgates. Perfect equality cannot be created for all human beings when we are not all equally blessed with the same gifts. Those who can perform brain surgery are not necessarily equal to those who stand by the freeway offramp and beg for food and money. Just as those who serve our country either overseas fighting or here upholding the Law are not equal to the sleeper terrorists here in America hiding and waiting to attack innocent civilians, or the people who die with a needle sticking out of their arm.
From the treatment of Native Americans, the ousting of Britain, Slavery, Civil War, Chinese Railroad workers, buying the Southwest from Mexico, Fighting in W.W.I, The Great Depression, W.W.II, the Cold War, the Civil Rights movement, the Counter Culture of the 60's, Viet Nam, the Computer Age, Energy crises, War on Terrorism, and now Global Warming, there has been continual struggles to move forward and keep this Nation as fair and strong as possible. Things have not always been done properly without anybody being slighted, but we can't rewrite history. Even though that gets attempted all the time. To acquiesce to pressure brought on by a cadre of underachievers who can only uplift themselves by sinking others falls far short of equality, fairness or self-reliance.
Two recent stories have come up that beautifully illustrate exactly where the hypocrisy emanates. The recent firing of the U.S Attorneys, and General Pace's comments about homosexuals in the military.
Take the U.S. Attorneys story. President Clinton came into office and fired all U.S. Attorneys, now President Bush fires 8 and gets castigated as a political partisan move. Well the U.S attorneys serve at the behest of the President and can be fired when necessary. Senator Charles Shumer Democrat New York says attorney general Alberto Gonzales should resign over this. The Attorney General did acquisce and say something along the lines of sorry, mistakes were made. I get infuriated every time the liberal media gets the conservatives to backpedal and aid them in their portrait of the conservatives as mean or disingenuous. Shumer says Gonzales' chief of staff Kyle Sampson can't take the fall for Alberto like Libby did for Cheney. Isn't that special, Shumer lecturing someone on ethics and taking responsibility. If my memory serves me well Shumer's office had credit reports on Michael Steele and Shumer's protege Lauren B. Weiner went down. And isn't that crime a felony? When you're a Democrat slandering a Republican I guess the truth and facts don't really matter. And the media will fail to point out the duplicity.
Oh well, all that is not surprising and neither is the Homosexual agenda making another inroad toward being an acceptable alternative lifestyle endorsed fully by the U.S. Government. I guess the Homosexuals feel that if the United States Govt. says it's O.K. then their abomination will be approved by all morality. General Pace came out and spoke his mind, obviously it was not politically correct, and he has been raked over the coals in the press. As a Marine, General Pace is more than likely a very no nonsense, by the book, stand up guy. He also said that adultery was immoral, so he is not just picking on gay people. That is what's going wrong in this country everybody is afraid to make a stand based on moral principles, as if everybodies morality is somehow unique and not bound to a higher standard. I am thankful for General Pace to stand up and claim God as our standard. I also worry about our military being insidiously undermined at it's very foundation. All the big Democrat players are pandering to the homosexual lobby and stating they will allow outright homosexuality in the ranks. As if dealing them a big loss in the War against Global Islamist Terrorism isn't a good enough slight. It will soon be a marvel if anybody wants to serve. At least General Pace will not back down and apologize for being right.

I like Fred Thompson

Even though I like Rudy and I like Mitt Romney, and would vote for a Mormon, if He was our nominee. It is Fred Thompson that I really like, I have heard His responses to speeches, heard Him fill in for Paul Harvey, I just think he looks Presidential, sounds Presidential and could be accepted by the Left and the Right, like Reagan, who got a great percentage of the electorate, but got slammed by the media. This guy is polished , professional, and prepared to lead our country forward. His association with Law and Order can't hurt either. Literally and figuratively.

What Will We do When Computers Fail?

I had to call the Maytag repairman today. The wash machine started flooding the laundry room floor last night. I thought it was the drain so I went out and bought a drain rooter snake. Then I proceeded to take off the trap, spilling just a little water on the floor and got upset about that, not a good way to start a plumbing project, getting upset about a cupful or two of shmeg water on the floor. The drain rooting went well enough, just a half hour down the drain. Again, I got a little upset, still not a good idea. Well, I had to mop up the floor and I got a brilliant idea, when I finally finish this laundry room project I can put a drain in the floor that runs outside so if the laundry room floods again the water will run directly outside. Plus one, minus two. O.K., so I thought that the drain was clear and the wash machine would be allright. Wrong, I checked it this morning and there was water all over the room again. It turns out this nearly brand new (6months) Wash machine is leaking around the pump pulley area. Seems like a bad sign to me, it is really leaking fast. Anyway now I know its not the drain, unless the clogged drain somehow caused the pump to blow out.
So the famously not very busy Maytag repairman had to be called up. After being on hold for a half hour we find out they are pretty busy, and can't make it until Monday night. Our product was registered for the warranty but we paid cash and misplaced the receipt. So this nearly brand new unit that sprung a leak might have to get repaired out of my pocket. Murphy's Law strikes again. Oh well it's only money right? So maybe I will sign up for those anger management classes, this really is not a big deal in the grand scheme of things.
I still have my computer. When that breaks I will go crazy. At least I can see what is wrong with the wash machine and I probably could fix it myself. But if something happens to the Fax, Computers, router or cable I am up a creek, as they say.
MyBlogspace.com/ and the internet go Poof and the world goes crazy.

Will We see the Umbra or Penumbra?

Saturday there will be a full lunar eclipse and I am not sure we can see it here. They say there will be one August 18, 2007 though, and we can see that one live. I guess I will have to watch this one on the Discovery Channel.

Moving toward the Light

Layers upon layers of entanglements.

Time and Time again.

If it's time to start over, let it begin.